Farm, Our Animals

One Determined , Compassionate & Fierce Momma

I don’t know if there’s anything sweeter on the farm than this site running around our yard.  She is one determined Momma! 

She sat on eggs for 21 days y’all!! Never got up! Never! We felt sorry for her and brought her feed and water inside the coop. And, finally after 21 days the eggs began to hatch. One by one, some took more than 21 days to hatch but she sat and waited patiently until they all hatched. 

She is compassionate! 

Our black bantam hen wanted her own chicks so bad!!! She tried sitting on eggs and of course she wouldn’t stay on them so we took them.  She has never been able to hatch any eggs. But, this Rhode Island thought “I have more than enough, so you can have one of mine.” 


Isn’t this just precious?!

She is fierce! 

Do NOT touch, chase, or try to help her babies! She will get you! 

The other day while in the garden, I thought one of her chicks were stuck in the fence so I tried to help it out. Before I knew what was happening I felt a sharp hammering on my hand! She had attacked me! 

And just like that, I stopped trying to help her baby chick!

I’ve also seen her put our bulldog aka “Sugar” on the steps! No one better mess with her babies! No One!  

I admire this hen. She has qualities that every Mother should have.

Determination….

Compassion….

& a Fierce Love for her children and Will protect them at ALL cost! 

Happy Saturday!

Broughton, Faith, Family, McKenna

April-May catch up!

How is it that May is almost over with???? Here we are, had our last day of school and ready for our 3-day weekend! 

What happened in those two months? Well let’s see…. 

Faith got glasses 

Finally got her show Steer- aka- Little JohnūüėÄ

She sung in …dare I say...LAST Children’s musicalūüôÄūüé∂

Probably had her LAST kids egg hunt at church
Can I stop now… I feel the tears wailing up!

We had a fun spring break with friends at Rigbys Sports Park!


Faith is a determined little girl & very smart! She’s finished the school year with AB Honor roll for the semester at GCA and is advancing to 6th grade! A middle schooler!!!! Wooowho!  Although, she misses friends, She will be homeschooled next year by a wonderful teacher… ME! Lol! No more elementary for the Walker academy! ūüė≠ Looking forward to what he future holds for this spunky little thing!

On to McKenna…

She’s growing up and such a growny young woman. Ulta is her new favorite store (Lord help us) But, she’s still my little girl! Most days you can find her working in the show barn with her cow Opal! She takes it serious, and she’s very responsible! She has Veterinarian dreams and I pray that she soars! We have plenty of animals on the farm to keep her busy too! She’s finished up the school year at GCA and is moving on to the 8th Grade! OMyGosh!  She’s already excited to be enrolled with Abeka for next school year as she is loving being a homeschooler! 


See.. growny! Lol! But, we love her!

Now Our Bman … he hates when I put anything about him so I’m gonna do it up right! 

He got his two show steers however I only took pics of one..??? This is Rocky! He’s a short horn..& just a big ole’ baby! He’s going to be great in the show ring I believe. Bman also got a Hereford Steer from Brogden Farms! His name is Copper, he’s in the process of getting halter broke right now and he’s a beast! Can’t wait for show season!

This was Bman’s third year with the Dodge Co. shot gun team! He qualified for state at the Vidalia meet with shooting 23 out of 25 clays. He’s a Great shooter! Many days at practice he would shoot a 24/25! How he does it is a mystery to some but I know he gets his skills from me, of course! Ha! The state meet was held at Rock Eagle and it was A WET messy day… but there’s was NO cancellation even in the rain! Who knew??! He scored a 21/25 .. not his best but dog on it that’s pretty good to me!!! Proud of him! So thankful to the Great coaches he has had in shotgun! These men do a fantastic job!

 

As much as Bman loves hunting and shooting he loves fishing too! He hooked this monster of a crappie in January, and we got the mount back last weekend. 

He was one happy young man, who now holds bragging rights! No more smack talking from this Momma,, well not for awhile anyways.  Broughton will be returning to public school next year at his daddy’s alma mater. He is excited about the .. 11th grade. 

How in the world ??!!! 11th grade?!  He’s a good kid! There are no complaints here. God has blessed us! Truly he has! Oh! And I guess I should add that he’s a pretty darn good rumy player too! Beat us all at our last family game night! 

He’s also a good driver but cares nothing about driving much. ?? We are working on those licenses and in the next month I should be able to send him on errand runs! Lol!!  

April and May flew in and out just like that! We are getting ready for these June blessings…

  • Oklahoma Cow Camp 
  • Soccer Camp
  • South Dakota mission trip
  • Lake Oconee youth trip

It’s gonna be a busy month yet again!!! 

God teaching me learning

How can I be a better friend?

A good friend is hard to find.

I once thought I had a lot of good friends, but Honey-child let yourself get caught up in the gossip ring and your friends run like cockroaches when the lights are turned on in the kitchen!

Having a tough season in life is bad, but the lessons & growth that we’ve experienced through it all has been priceless!

Lessons learned:

  1. Don’t be a crowd pleaser!

I have always been a people pleaser, but, God has broken me of that now. It is apparent by the lack of close friends, in my life. Going with the crowd and tickling ears makes You WEAK! Makes you lose FOCUS! Paul wasn’t liked very well either… why?.. he spoke the hard truth and he had scripture to back himself up! He was blunt.. he called people fools! Gotta love Paul!

For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ! (Galatians 1:10)

To be obedient and pleasing to God is far greater than anything or any friend you will ever know on this earth!

2. Be a better friend!

I’m guilty! I will be the first to admit it! But, through this trial we’ve learned how to recognize a true friend and how to be a better one ourselves!

The Bible says that Jonathan and Davids’ hearts were knit together!(1 Sam. 18:1-8)

David was running from his besties’ daddy! True story! But NEVER ONCE, do you read of Jonathan’s disappearance in David’s life! Instead, he gave him his armor! WOW! What a friend! Are YOU that type of friend? I’m sure David was in the gossip ring.. as a matter of fact it was the gossip ring that made Sauls anger burn!!! “David’s killed tens of thousands to King Saul” ¬† Where was David? By his friends side! Believe that!

I recently listened to a sermon by Dr. Charles Stanley. He gives 11 Building blocks of friendships that are crucial! They are the characteristics of a genuine friend. Here’s what a ¬†friend does..

  1. They delight in us and they are a joy to be around.
  2. They develop us, encouraging us in our faith. They help us to become better than what we are!
  3. They drive us, they push us to jump out of our comfort zones.
  4. TIME- here’s one we all struggle with! Be available!
  5. Triumphs, share those victories in life! You rejoice in what they are accomplishing!! When your friend has done something you Facebook and Instagram it! Buddy you let the whole world know how proud you are of them more importantly you let that friend know it! If you don’t.. then you’re just a jealous Nenny!
  6. Trials, be there …during trials!! We all have them, don’t be an ostrich with you head in the sand! Remember, one day you will have a trial… where do you want your bff to be???? “Geniune friendships aren’t built on when everything is going right!
  7. Have a thankful heart‚̧ԳŹ and be loyal. This friend you can call anytime & tell them anything and you are so thankful you have a friend like that!
  8. Be thoughtful! Little cards, texts, an invite over for dinner! “Thoughtfulness comes from the inside”
  9. Tolerance. Be willing to forgive and be patient.. but don’t be a doormat! A person saying they’re sorry… fixes the problem or action! Remember that!
  10. Transparency. Don’t hide things about yourself! Be real.. People. Dang! That’s were God gets the Glory …is in fixing your mess of a life! Amen?!
  11. Truthfulness. ¬†“If a person isn’t truthful you can’t have a friendship!” That means in all things you speak the truth in love! ‚̧ԳŹ Then you hang around them, you don’t coward and run away! Hearing hard truth is … well.. hard! Why would you share it …then abandon someone. Check on that person. Pray with them, let them know you care!!!!!

In closing I will say this.. it all starts with YOU! I’m thankful that God used Dr. Charles Stanley and this article below to HELP me become a better friend and to recognize true friendship when I see it!
http://proverbs31.org/devotions/devo/the-value-of-showing-up-for-a-friend/

God teaching me learning, Uncategorized

The Fly that needed Jesus!

As I was putting on my makeup yesterday I heard the buzzing of a fly. ¬†It was a long buzzzzz…an annoying buzz… a buzz that made me get up out of my chair to see what was going on. ¬†Actually, I hate a fly and I was going to put it out of its’ misery. ¬†What I didn’t know was that we had a spider web behind my window shutter and the fly… was … caught! ¬†Caught in the web! ¬† At first I thought.. eewww…gross, gotta clean the windows! ¬† I then became entranced with what happened next. ¬†It was like watching a episode on animal planet. ¬†I know this may sound crazy, and maybe you’re thinking that I have too much time on my hands,.. maybe I do.. …?…..NO! I don’t! I just got side tracked for a minute, but seriously.… Have you EVER watched a spider after they catch their prey? ¬†It’s kind of freaky, the smarts of a spider… ¬†they’re rather patient too. ¬†They spin a web, and wait for something to fall into it. ¬†I watched this spider after the fly had gotten trapped, it was trying to break free! ¬†It was moving all around, and I thought well it’s going to fly out of the trap and then annoy me, better get ready to swat! ¬†As I waited I watched the spider begin to spin under the fly and all around. ¬†I thought, What in the world is that spider doing? ¬†Taunting the fly..?? maybe? ¬†….

Nope.. the spider was busy spinning a backup plan in case it escaped it would fall into another trap! ¬†Then it connected to the two major webs holding the fly into position and it begin to move up and away from the fly,… pulling it tighter and tighter until the fly STOPPED buzzing.

After waiting for the fly to stop buzzing, the spider would climb down toward the fly to inject it’s poison. ¬†But, nope,.. the little fly kept buzzing, and the spider climbed back upward, holding tight till the fly gave up hope. ¬†This happened several times. ¬†It was like a tug-of-war. ¬†Finally, the fly gave up, and stopped buzzing.. and just like that, the spider had lunch.

As I thought about this it reminded me of sin and satan. ¬†Here we are, little flies in the world, we get caught in a web, and there’s satan trying to have a back up plan to catch us yet again! ¬†Maybe it’s a WEB of lies,…one lie leads to the next lie, which leads to the next…… on and on.. it goes. ¬†Many of us give up HOPE, we try to control things in our own strength and we end up getting caught,… AGAIN.. over and over!

In that moment, I wanted to free the little fly… but I didn’t. ¬†The poor thing, helpless,… he needed a friend, …

The fly needed JESUS!

When Jesus enters in…. he sets things STRAIGHT! ¬†He is our chain breaker! ¬†He breaks the chains (webs) of sin, lies, and destruction. ¬†He is the HOPE giver!

If you are suffering today, in your web of sin…..

Cry out to The LORD! ¬†Only HE can save, restore, and redeem!!! ¬†Stop falling for the schemes of the enemy. ¬†Stop trying to do it YOUR WAY! ¬†You’re just going to get caught again.

I shared with a group a ladies this week Psalm 61!  I thought it was so fitting for this story! May it encourage you! Lead me to the ROCK that is HIGHER!

 

1 Hear my cry, O God;
    listen to my prayer.

2 From the ends of the earth I call to you,
    I call as my heart grows faint;
    lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
3 For you have been my refuge,
    a strong tower against the foe.

4 I long to dwell in your tent forever
    and take refuge in the shelter of your wings.
5 For you, God, have heard my vows;
    you have given me the heritage of those who fear your name.

6 Increase the days of the king’s life,
    his years for many generations.
7 May he be enthroned in God’s presence forever;
    appoint your love and faithfulness to protect him.

8 Then I will ever sing in praise of your name
    and fulfill my vows day after day.

 

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Just for fun, Travel

Cruzin the Bahamas

It’s hard to believe that over two weeks ago we set sail on “The Liberty” of Carnival. It’s also hard to believe it’s taken me THIS LONG to upload the photos! ¬†Life is busy here!

Matt & I had a fabulous time on our cruise to the Bahamas. ¬†It was our 20th Anniversary in March so we decided to Cruise! ¬†I’m so glad that we did! ¬†We made lots of memories, & met a few new friends! ¬†God is Good!

The excursions we signed up for were the V.I.P. Beach Get-a-way for two in Nassau & The Reef Snorkel & dolphin encounter in Freeport. ¬†Both excursions were AMAZING! ¬†My husband surprised me with the beach day (because he’s romantic like that) which I LOVE! ¬†EVERY PICTURE was virtually post card WORTHY!! ¬†I mean seriously… it doesn’t get much better than a private beach, welcomed by mimosas, lounger’s for two, lunch for two, and a sweet waiter!!! ¬†Who, by the way, knew about the Lord,.. but hopefully will get plugged in after Matt spoke with her. ¬†We should ALWAYS share about our God “as we go”! Amen?!

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On the morning of our 2nd excursion, we got bad news & good news.. bad=the water was too rough to snorkel, good=… they upgraded us to a Dolphin Experience! ¬†This was THE HIGH LIGHT of our entire TRIP!! ¬† God’s Blessing for sure! ¬†We got to get into the water as a couple (with the guide instructor) and do tricks with them, hug them, kiss them, it was AMAZING!! ¬†We were both like kids! ¬†It was defiantly worth every penny they asked for!!! Highly recommend this excursion to anyone!

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Our new friend, “Indy”! ¬†We bonded instantly! ¬†Sure wish we had room for him on the farm! ¬†I tried my best to get him to come home with me, but unfortunately he had to stay in Freeport.. something about not having an appropriate home here for him… blah,.. blah…blah…! ¬†LOL! ¬†dolphin selfie

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I love this MAN! ¬†He is such a blessing to me and our family! ¬†Being married for 20 years is rare. If it weren’t for God at the center of our marriage we wouldn’t be together. Hands down! So a little advice to the young ones out there…

  • Make God the center of your marriage!
  • Make time for each other
  • Communication is Key
  • LOVE
  • FIGHT FOR YOUR MARRIAGE, NEVER GIVE UP!

For more pictures check out our link:

https://goo.gl/photos/JumJReoR7XEjS13G8

Attachment Disorder

Our Story

I have wrestled with this post for quite awhile now… every time I came to type, my post was fueled by anger, bitterness, and the need to be justified and I would end up hitting the backspace key on.it.all… and in tears. ¬†It wasn’t time to share… and I knew it! ¬†I hated that!

I believe God had to let me heal from some deep wounds before I could represent HIM clearly… and make this post about HIM and His Glory to be seen throughout all of this,.. before I could actually write about it.

I was sent a video recently of a widowed mother of three. ¬†She was only 25 at the time of her husbands unexpected death. ¬†To say she was devastated would be an understatement. ¬† She said something that spoke to me… it was that she cried out to God during her pain… crying not for the pain to STOP, but, that the pain would be used to further HIS Kingdom. ¬†She said,. … “If one would come to know YOU Lord, .. through my pain….. and my husbands’ death… then it would be worth it! Don’t let my pain… be in vain.”

And,.. it hit me. ¬†This pain that we’ve felt,..that Isaiah has felt from early trauma…..that it would all be in vain,.. if no one knew the story of how it came to be… of how GOD displayed His presence throughout the whole thing! ¬†My, how we would ALL miss the point of it all! We don’t want that to happen! ¬†We never ever want to sell God short on anything!

I will type this with honesty and integrity and in the most polite way I know how.. to honor my God and the Great Things HE has done for both Isaiah and our family.

¬†LORD, I pray RIGHT NOW as I type and as those who are reading this that my words would be used to give YOU Glory only!! ¬†May this post be used to further YOUR Kingdom and to bring peace to our community… and beyond. ¬†Bind up the evil one Lord, for we know that we wrestle with not flesh and blood, but with the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. (Ephesians¬†6:12)
¬†¬†Lord Please,… as the widowed mother said.. don’t let our pain be in vain. ¬†In your name I pray! Amen! ¬†

This time last year was a very hard HARD season for us. ¬†Dealing with issues in our home and praying that God would help us… give us eyes to see “how to handle this”. ¬†What do we do, Lord? ¬† ¬†First.. I praise GOD for a praying husband! A true MAN of GOD! ¬†When I began this journey of life with him many years ago,… I knew he made no big decision without the prayers to a HOLY GOD for help and guidance. ¬†That is one of the BEST things about Matt. ¬†He is a passionate man for the heart of GOD and his people! ¬†He has always led this family with a fierce love and fear of the Lord! I believe, ..with all my heart,.. that is why our family has stayed intact through it all. ¬†
 Praise the LORD. Blessed are those who fear the LORD, who find great delight in his commands.  Psalm 112:1
As my hurt, bruised, little family sat in the Therapist office, after a long hard season… the therapist commended us both for raising our children in a Godly home, and for protecting them,…ALL of them… no matter the cost. ¬†She said,,..”You know it is obvious that God is with you all,.. and your family is still intact because of your GREAT Faith in HIM,…and in time.. these wounds will heal.” ¬†She encouraged us in our walk, and in our parenting. ¬†Deep down, I knew, Matt was the head of the house, and it was only by his leading…his home… in a Godly way.. that we were able to still be together. ¬†I can NEVER thank my GOD enough for that Wonderful man of mine. ¬†I’m Thankful to call him my BEST FRIEND! ¬†There were many MANY nights, that he would just hold me ,.. and listen to me cry.. and my asking why??? to answer’s that he didn’t even have.. but he pointed me to the ONE who had them all!!!! He encouraged me to never stop loving this son, that was so difficult to parent,.. and to NEVER stop telling him of a GOD that LOVED him fiercely. He “got” my hurt. ¬†He “got” my pain. ¬†He felt every bit of it. ¬†He held nothing back. ¬†He supported me with everything. ¬†He stood up when lies were being told to him about me. ¬†He stood up when his other children were not being treated the way GOD would have them to be treated and every time he disciplines our children… he had scripture to back it up! ¬†He told this child of a God that Loved him and wanted way better for him than the path he was on. ¬†Praise you Lord, for this wonderful Godly man, father, brother in Christ, and husband. ¬†
No one knows, what we’ve been through. ¬†Many who hear it, don’t believe it. ¬†But, they were not in our home, and haven’t a clue to what a day would look like for us… much less know what to do when faced with such a difficult decision. ¬†Many claim what they would do… ¬†
Our story is much like the fable told of the man at sea with his two children. ¬†He made the decision to put one who couldn’t swim on the buoy and leave him there while he went to the sea and rescue the other. ¬†Regardless, of the decision.. is it truly a “win win”?? ¬†What if one child got swept out to sea?? What if you lost your life and now have two kids …fatherless? ¬†What if one child slipped off the buoy? ¬†There are lots of variables and “what if’s”. I’ve always thought… you know.. I just hope I never have to make that decision. But, obviously, a decision had to be made.¬†
For us, we prayerfully sought God in every twist and turn. ¬†Nothing we did was flippant. We drew near to HIM! ¬†The Bible says.. ” Draw near to him and he will draw near to you.” (James 4:8) ¬† ¬† We cried out to him for a long time. ¬†We obediently prayed and sought Him.. and I believe it was through those fervent prayers that a Godly family was found for Isaiah.¬†
We had been told by the therapist that sometimes,.. with a child with Reactive Attachment Disorder, the “second” family has a better chance at attachment with them. ¬†Unfortunately, for us, Isaiah blamed his abandonment in China on us. ¬†It also didn’t help matters that we had pictures with him and had met him while in China to adopt Faith. ¬†For him.. the lies that the enemy had told,.. by seeing the pictures of us holding him at 1 year old.. and then not getting him until he was 6 years old.. made him even MORE convinced that we had left him. ¬†
That was clearly .. not the case! ¬†No matter how many times, we told him, therapist told him, … prayer… nothing could ever convince him of the truth. ¬†He was stuck. ¬†That produced an extreme amount of hate towards us, and ultimately he wanted out of our family. ¬†From that, he tried anything and everything he could to make that happen. ¬†
I was in contact with a friend who knew of his disorder. ¬†She tried to help get him to a special facility that even specialized in R.A.D. ¬†That didn’t happen,.. and he was put in a facility that just tried to basically give him coping skills for his outburst of anger. ¬†In this facility, it looked much like an orphanage. ¬†No real Mommy or Daddy or siblings there that told you they love you. ¬†No having to obey someone you despised. ¬†He showed no sign of the rages and even though he stated he didn’t want to go home, our insurance was settled to release him. ¬†Though his treatment plan at the facility stated 3 months at the least.¬†
At this time we tried to find children’s homes to place him in for which they would not take him because if he was a threat to his family… he would be to the others in the facility. ¬†They would not take him under his condition. ¬†We felt as though the walls were closing in on us. ¬†We continued to pray and trust. ¬†This friend and I were on the phone one day and she suggested another family adopting him. ¬†She asked had I ever thought about it. ¬†Thought about it …and heard of it earlier, yes…but, only for a half-second because that was never an option we were willing to take at that time. ¬†But, now,.. this time was different. ¬†I agreed to let her see if she knew of any families that were interested in adopting an older child. ¬†
In my heart, I just knew,.. she would never find one. ¬†That was far fetched.for a family to be found.. especially given his history…or so I thought. ¬†So, we prayed as we waited. ¬†
I remember specifically the day… I heard God speak to me. ¬†We were at church, and it was during an odd time… it was during the “welcome” time. ¬†I heard a voice ask “Do you trust me?” ¬†I paused in my pew and thought… what?
I heard it again.. “Do you trust me?” ¬†I said (in my head of course otherwise someone would assume I was crazy) “Lord, is that you?
I heard for the third time.. “Do you trust me?”
I knew instantaneously, that the Lord was speaking.. for which I like Peter said.. 
“YES, Lord.. I trust You!… I mean.. of course I do!”
Then, as quick as the question came… it was gone.. and there was silence.
I told Matt about the weird question that afternoon.  We continued to pray and by this time had appointed prayer warriors to pray specifically.
The next day.. I got a call from my friend. ¬†She wept as she told me she had a family that was interested in adopting Isaiah. ¬†I know it must have been hard for her. ¬†I’m sure her emotions were torn. ¬†She began to tell me about this family and honestly… it was like they were too good to be true. ¬†A Christian family, a godly home, older children in the home… always wanted to adopt….
I remember her crying and my sheer and utter shock. ¬†I was numb. ¬†As I hung up the phone, I began to process what had just happened and in that moment I knew WHY God had asked me “Do you trust me?”
This was NOT what I wanted! This was NOT what WE wanted!!  
We had not prayed for this! ¬†I remember telling Matt and just crying… and he was like.. “ok… calm down… we haven’t spoken with the family yet. .don’t jump to conclusions.” ¬†But I knew… that it was already done. ¬†I knew about me hearing God the day before and I explained to him that I know God was preparing my heart.. for THIS news! ¬† The next few days were a blur to me. ¬†I honestly don’t remember much except for crying and hearing my kids ask me “Momma, is everything ok?” ¬†Trying to hold it together was impossible without God. ¬† I’ve always heard of the ” Footprints in the Sand” ¬†poem but, truly had never REALLY understood how that felt. ¬†To be held.. by God himself. ¬†For it was God who carried me when I couldn’t even stand.
Then the time came .. we wanted to speak with the prospective family. ¬†We wanted to know about them… and explain about his issues that we had had, but they also knew that we LOVED HIM! ¬†This was NEVER about a lack of LOVE! ¬†We knew that this was the last thing…. the last resort for attachment for him was another family. ¬†But, we hated it. ¬†We were angry. ¬†We felt robbed. ¬†It was like a death… but, worse. ¬†
After starting off with praying with the other family… we began to talk. ¬†They were perfect. ¬†A sweet family. ¬†A good home. ¬†I was heartbroken. We were heartbroken. ¬†So many questions? ¬†WHY Lord, can’t he stay with us? ¬†Why are we not good enough? ¬†Is this your will? We sat there and talked after our conversation… and we thought well, it’s in the Lord’s hands now. ¬†We prayed that God would show us the way. ¬†
Within a few days it was final. ¬†They wanted to adopt him for sure… and were already in the process of making that happen. ¬†
And just like that… our prayers were answered… but, not like we’d hoped. ¬†You see, we had hoped for something very different. ¬†We struggled with that.. but knew we had peace about letting him be adopted by this family. ¬†This Christian family. ¬†We knew they were sent by God. ¬†I remember my sweet sister telling me.. “Keisha, maybe you and Matt were just the vessel God used to get him to this family” ¬†Since then, God has confirmed that statement many times through his people. ¬†We have peace about the decision to give up our rights to this family for adoption. ¬†
I never dreamed I would be here. ¬†Never in a million years, would I have told you 4 years ago, that this would be how the story would end with Isaiah. ¬†I had so much planned. ¬†I had so many dreams… that went **Poof**…right before my eyes. ¬†That “What I thought was the perfect family picture” just slipped right through my hands. ¬†We had a choice.. sure. ¬†We could have denied the whole thing and said NO, and demand that our family live in separate homes, to keep everyone safe and we visit one another each day and eventually, it would work.. WE would make it work.but..¬†
God said.. NO.
Point. blank. end .of .story. NO!
I somewhat understand why some are mad at us. ¬† They don’t like the way it all turned out. ¬†They don’t like what happened. ¬†So they look for someone to blame. ¬†It must be someone’s fault.. right? ¬†
Hey, just so you know… ¬†we didn’t like it either, but¬†
We felt that for the sake of our other three in the home, and as well as Isaiah having a chance for attachment.. this was what God was showing us to do.   We PRAYERFULLY sought God through it all and because of that we have no regrets.  We miss him.  Our family misses him, but we know that GOD has a plan and that he is much loved and well taken care of.  We are Thankful to God.
When you put your Faith in a God that CAN… we will show you he CAN.
That’s what he’s done for us. ¬†He’s shown us over and over that he is in control and just as Romans 8:28 says
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
He is working this to the good.. for us all… Isaiah and our family. ¬†We know that God has Great Plans for him. ¬†We pray for him and for his new family. ¬†We hope that this brings closure to some who so adamantly demanded it earlier. ¬†We don’t have all the answers and maybe it still doesn’t make since to you…but we know THE ONE who does. ¬†Do I ask why? Why not us Lord? ¬†Sure, I use to ask. ¬†But, not anymore. ¬†I gave it to the Lord. ¬†There is healing in that my friend. ¬†
Our family has moved on and tried to put the pieces back together, but there is a piece missing… we are now 5 and not 6. ¬†I still grab 6 spoons, or six plates. I used to break down and cry when that happened… but I look at it now as an opportunity to pray for him. ¬†
I’m thankful that we may only be 5 now, but we are a strong 5. ¬†God made us that way… he has healed many deep wounds and our family bonds are much stronger. ¬†¬†
I still have a lego man that was left behind…It sits beside my bed. ¬†I will keep this little lego to remind me of God’s Faithfulness to Isaiah.. and that God’s plan is always better. ¬†It may not look like what we envisioned or planned… but, it is always Better. ¬†We just have to Trust.


Great is Thy Faithfulness! Lamentations 3:23